Or let’s not
This is a going to be a hard post to write
Alcohol can be like the best love after
It makes you happy
You can be yourself
It makes you smile and you have a great time with it
And it can be the worst
It makes you question yourself
It scares you and makes you paranoid
It makes you look ugly and needy
It can control you
It can be the last thing you do at night and the first thing you think about on waking
Right now it’s controlling me
It’s not just a glass of wine or a bottle
It’s a bottle of port or vermouth
Easy to pour
Easy to drink
Wine repulses me at the moment and I can’t drink it
So the harder stuff it is
I used to keep it in the garage so I would have to physically go out to get a bottle but we made a little bar in the corner and it’s easily to hand
I am drinking daily and I want to stop
I have to stop
One step/day at a time
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