Love

 I bloody Love J

I thought I loved P and to a degree I did. But I never had it in reality with him

J was different

All I wanted wanted was a break but covid pushed us into living together before we were ready

And I needed me time

It is so hard not being with him

And I know with a bit of work he is the one I want to be with

He doesn’t trust me though

And I have been thinking about it all

How would I have reacted to someone behaving the why I did

I would have been holding on to their ankles as they tried to leave but that is the difference between us

I don’t know what I can do for him to forgive me 

I can’t do this without him